Another day of thoughts

So I was thinking about life and death a little bit today.  About the difference in people when they are in good health and when things go a bit awry.  It's difficult to watch that transformation sometimes.  Seeing a young healthy person, begin to age and kinda start to fall apart a little.  It's something that is both hard on the person going through it and those surrounding and supporting the person.  So that go me to thinking, if you had a choice would you rather not know the person before they became ill, or would you still want to know them from the get go.  Would the memories of what was be too painful to live with, causing you to just choose to only have known them from the time when they began to get sick.  It's of course not a choice one really has, but hypathetically of course, what would you choose.  As painful as it to be around someone and watch them transition, I would still choose to have the memories.  I think it's also about learning to appreciate what that person is going to become.  It's also to live in the here and now and not dwell on the past.  The past is gone and crying for it, won't make past, present.  So alot of it is just picking up and moving forward.  It's really a hard thing to do.  It's like a death in a way, I guess.  A death of what was, as opposed to losing a person.  Deep I know.  Hee,hee.  That's what happens when I get to thinking too deeply as I clean house.  Scary stuff happens when I get all thoughtful!  Let's see, on a new subject, we are still going on the potty training.  It's coming slowly, Julia knows and understands what the stickers are for and about.  It's just catching her at the right time.  Not too early or too late.  If she says she needs to go, she means right now.  So having a healthy sense of urgency to get her in there and get her pull up down is always important! She is trying really hard and so am I.  I am really discovering it's all about consistancy and patience.  I want it to be a fun thing, not a chore.  So far so good most of the time.  She is such a smart little cookie.  She is starting to learn what it feels like to need to go, I think.  She will sometimes grab her pull up and then I know I need to run her in there.  At times though, it's already too late.  So you just have to get a new pull up and start again.  I really want to try to help her be successful.  So far I think for not yet being two, that she is doing awesome!  She is definately feeling her oats and independance now.  She likes to get out of the cart and walk in the store now.  She runs up and down the isles making noise, walking up to random people saying hi.  She loves other kids.  She is becoming quite social.  It's awesome to watach the changes she is going through.  She is so much fun.  She is learning to say please and thank you.  We went to the play ground of dreams in tri cities with my parents and my sister and her kids about two weeks ago.  It was so much fun.  My sister, Sarah, rode up with me.  We got a chance to really talk and laugh, something it seems like we haven't had so much of lately.  I miss her so much sometimes.  We were always together growing up.  We were each others best friends. We still are, but it's different because we are both married and parents now.  It definately changes the way things are, but I will always have her as a sister and a friend.  That is awesome to me.  Seeing Julia play with her cousins Lexi and Annie was really great.  She loves to play with other kids. It's awesome to see the little person she is growing into.  It will for sure, be a really cool journey to see her grow up.  A challenging one yes, but a fun one though!  Well I think this will about do it!