hhmmm... Why do I have to repeat the same lessons?

So I have been thinking a bit about things today.  I don't know why I have to learn the same lessons over and over again.  God has to put the same things on my heart over and over sometimes, before I can seem to figure it out.  I don't even know if I have it figured out yet.  But something I am sure of is this.  I can be really mean spirited with and with out realizing it.  I say things so many times and don't realize how horrible it sounded till later.  I can tear people down in an instant.  Why do I do that?  Why do I feel the need to be negative sometimes? Why does this happen to me?  I really want to be someone who is positive and truly good.  But at times I just find myself falling into that old way of acting, ugh, I hate that.  I was treated so ugly by people in school as a child, so I know how it feels.  Why would I do that?  I usually don't mean to be that way, but I am.  I want so much to be a person who people want to be around, and at times I am.  But every now and again, I just hit this little place in myself.  I am thinking that this is something I am going to need to do some more thinking and praying on.  All of that being said, I am not always negative or ugly.  I can be quite bubbly, well maybe not bubbly.  But a generally happy person none the less.  I do try to find the humor in life, and I do try to give good healthy advice to others.  At times though, I think people just need to hear it like it is.  It's far easier to be very honest then to beat around the bush.  But one must remember to respect the feelings of others too. It's a fine line you walk when you have others in your life.  Perhaps I should go live as a hermit for a while.  maybe then I could get through a week with out offending someone.  I just wish I could be like some of the people I know, and always be lifting people up.  I guess I will just have to try to work harder at it.  Being in a thinking mood is always interesting. 

On another subject I am feeling happy tonight.  I managed to get my little dog Joey to take his meds with out a fight.  He didnt find the pill hidden in the hot dog so I am happy about that.  Hopefully he won't wise up before he takes the other 9 pills.  He is such a funny little dog.  I just hope the pills will calm his stomach down, and help him.  He irritates me beyond belief at times, but I love him so much!  Lately he has been stuck like glue to me.  If I go to the bathroom he follows me.  The cat does too, and Julia sits out side the bathroom cries and bangs on the door.  So going pee is a fabulous event.  My little Julia girl is starting to walk alot more.  Give her another month and she will hopefully be walking full time.  I want her to be, but she is a stubborn girl and definately has her own mind about everything.  She will be doing really good on something and then just suddenly stop!  Why?  UGH!! So we are learning together.  It takes time to accomplish everything.  And it takes more time for her to decide she wants to do something.  But I love her so much, and her daddy loves her so much.  She is a very blessed little girl!  There is almost no one in her life who isn't totally in love with her.  Or who does't just want to see her and see how she is doing.  So happy about that, and for how good of a girl she is.  She definately likes to test her boundaries, but in the end she always comes back to where she needs to be.  I love her for that, and the fact that she is so independant.  It makes my life so fun, because I can actually relate to her on some level.  She is learning how to communicate alot more clearly.  It makes things easier and more interesting.  She is a little parrot so you really have to watch what you say and do.  Well I think I will close tonights blog on this note:  As humans we all have to be able to be our best critic and alli.

It's Just me again

Well tonight it's just me awake.  My hubby passed out right after supper, God love him.  My Julia stayed up a little late to watch Berenstien Bears, then I put her to bed.  So it's just me sitting up watching Duck Dynasty on t.v..  I will probly head for bed myself soon.  But I like having a few hours to myself in the evenings.  It's good for the mommy soul to take some time for herself.  Being a Wife and Mommy is great, but it does get a little exhausting sometimes too.  When everyone in your house(pets included) seems to need you for something.  Today when I went to the restroom I could hear my daughter fussing and banging on the door.  When I came out there was our dog, our cat, and our child lined up waiting for me!  Even in the bathroom, I get no peace.  Oh well I guess, what are you gonna do.  How often as a mom do you find your self closing your eyes for a second to think before you react?  Either because you are trying not to laugh, or scream at whatever your child is doing.  That is me, usually cause I am trying not laugh.  I swear she does these little faces when she is in trouble,  just meant to make me lose my angry face.  She is joy to me, she really is.  I do my best to give everyone the time they need with me.  Sometimes I feel like I am being spread very thin.  Tomorrow I want to make banana bread, or cookies.  I think it would be a fun treat for my hubby.  It's supposed to be cool out tomorrow again, so I can bake with out making my house too hot to tolerate.  I have been wanting sweets, so I think I will enjoy them too.  Well this one is a bit shorter, but its bed time now I think. Night all!

Well I am taking my older sisters advice and giving an inrto. into who I am so that you all have a better idea about me and can connect.  My name obviously is Tiffany Ripley(Barr).  I am 30 years old and a mother of one.  I am married to the love of my life, Shane Ripley.  Our daughter, Julia, is almost two years old.  I can't believe it. It's so crazy!  We live out in the middle of nowhere!  It's quiet out here, and beats living in Quincy hands down!  However, it's also very secluded, and it gets old really fast sometimes being out in the country all day.  I laugh about living in the dust bowl, because the dust is ridiculous out here.  The wind blows all the time.  I feel that I can relate to the people who lived through the actual dust bowl years.  When ever the wind blows, the dust just comes in so fast.  I end up with a sand box on all the window sills.  When I vaccum there is at least a half a cup of dust in the trap.  I hate that it is in the carpet.  My house never feels quite clean because of it.  Oh well, I guess.  Where was I, oh yeah, so I moved here from Bremerton.  My hubby was in the Navy then he got out and after a short stint as a Shipwrite, he got hired here at one of the data centers in Quincy.  I miss the convience of how everything was so close to us in Bremerton, but I love living only an hour and a half from our family.  I get to see everyone alot more often now.  So that is a little about my family and I.  There will be more to come over time I promise.  I went out side tonight to let out Joey(he is our wiener dog pup) and smelled the sweet night air. It made me feel so nostalgic.  Remembering the Summers of my child hood, and how things used to be.  I miss the care free days so much sometimes.  Before I had a child, before I was married, before I was even out of school.  My mind waundered back to when my sister and I were little kids.  We spent our Summers playing outside, and going down to the pool almost everyday.  I miss that so much.  Playing games, being up late and no one cared.  We used to play ball tag and hide an go seek, life was always fun.  Now life is still fun, it's just so different because we both have families.  But I am happy with the here and now, but some times memories make me miss the old days.  Life is funny that way.  When you are a kid time goes by so slow, then when you become an adult time flies.  What is that about?  Why does it work that way?  Sometimes I just wish I had the knowledge to understand things.  Well I suppose it's time to shut this blog down for now. 

Hhhmmm... My first blog!

Being a mom is a challenging and rewarding task.  If anyone had ever told me I would be a stay at home mom and enjoy every minute of it, I would have called them crazy.  Then my daughter was born, and for a short time I returned to work.  I hated having to leave her behind each day.  It killed me, I don't know how working moms keep doing it, day after day.  It's so hard to leave those little faces, and know that some one else may be the first to see your child crawl or walk.  They will be the one cheering your baby on as they reach each mile stone in their young lives.  But thankfully God heard my prayers and our situation changed so I could stay home with our daughter.  Granted God didn't change things how I expected, but his will is perfect, so I happily trudged along the path he set before me.  Life is funny in that you just never know what tomorrow may bring.  I am quite sure this blog is all over the place, but it's my first one, and I am tired.  So a great big rasberry to any one who doesn't like it! Just kidding, of course.  So enough about my journey here, let's talk about what I am doing now that I am here.  I have been trying my hand at doing a lot of "from scratch cooking"!  I know scarey right.  But with the weather being so hot lately, not much creative baking is being done.  I just can't face heating up the house.  But tomorrow I am hopeing to be able to try my hand at a loaf of bread, not done in the bread machine.  I did go out and buy bread today, but there is something about making it yourself.  I really enjoy such little things as that.  I am also hoping to get my sewing machine back out soon.  I have many quilt squares to cut, and sew.  I also want to make the cloth book that I have the fabric for, before my daughter is too old to appreciate it!  I do enjoy sewing but it is at times hard to do with an active toddler running around.  Just yesterday I came in from stepping outside just for a minute, to find her eating pasta from the trash can.  Who ever said being a mom was boring, never was one!  Well I suppose that will do for now!