Thoughts of Randomness

Well here we are, preparing to close another day.  I am sitting here blogging while my dinner digests!  Husband is doing homework, and daughter is watching Caillou.  It's one of those nights where I have a feeling I may be up late.  I hope not, cause I am wanting to get up and shower before Julia wakes up.  We will see.  I am supposed to go for a play date at a friend of my friend Victoria's.  Hoping to meet other moms in the area.  I want to make some more friends.  I have lived here for over a year and I only have like two people who I can really call friends. I have other women that I have hung out a little with, but none that I feel are really friends.  I don't make friends easily, it's always been that way for me.  I just wish it was simpler for me to meet people.  I tend to get all nervous in social situations.  I do alot better in smaller gatherings.  I guess it's mostly left over from my past, never feeling like I was as good as others, or as deserving.  Or whatever, either way it's just more stuff I have to work through.  Why do we bring baggage into our adult life, from our childhood?  I wish I didn't do that, but I do!  I am hoping so much that my own children don't have to go through that.  I want them to make friends and always be able to be true to themselves.  I just want happiness for my kids, and the ability to lift those around them up!  I want my kids to be positive people.  When they become adults, I hope they will make better choices on some things then I have.  I hope they won't put themselves into some of the situations I have.  I hope they can have hearts for the Lord and always know without question that he is watching over them and walking with them each day.  I just want to set a really good example for them.  Well looks like I have gone off course, yet again.  I try really hard to stay with one thought and ride it till it's over.  But I always jump around. Oh well.  I have so many projects I want to get done.  I need to clean up our bedroom again, well, we need to clean it.  I also want to better organize some of our shelves in the kitchen.  AAWWW.... the work of a wife/mom is never done.  But I wouldn't trade it for anything.  I just love being a mom and a wife, so much.  I have baby fever again really bad.  I am so glad that we are going to be trying for another one soon.  It will be my last one, so hopefully it will be a easy pregnancy for me.  Well I think I am done with my blog for now.